books and letters

i keep reading megan's blog on my reader,
like everytime she updates it.
it seriously gave me the chills to read her 11:11 one.
it just made me think so much of when my grandpa died of cancer on March 28, 2003.

it just all seems so familar. the pain i know she's feeling, her family is feeling, and i cant help but picture her grandma with the same look in her eyes as my grandma. i'm seriously at a loss for words.

my heart is with megan,
her family,
and most of her grandma.

megan, my love, you're a beautiful and strong girl. your grandpa was so proud of you. i remember him taking me back to the room with all your pictures on the wall and you could tell how much he loved you, and how proud he was of you and your brothers just by looking at the way he talked about you and the way he smiled and looked at your pictures on that wall. i wish i could say that i was as strong as you 5 years ago, but the truth is i never got over it. i never really said goodbye, and i never dealt with it. please give yourself closure, because if you dont. you'll be a mess like i am right now. i know you will and i know you'll be ok.