take our chances

it's not like anyone reads this,
so why do i even write in it?
maybe because theres a lot is going on right now.

Shae is moving out today... apparently?
and i can't say i'm too upset about it, but i can't say i wont miss her.
and i won't saying moving in is what ruined our friendship. i'm pretty sure she thinks i'm irresponsible. and i'm pretty sure thats it. i'm not going to get into details about how ridiculous she's being. but since i've gotten back from manwhores/emery tour/mandi's she's acted like i'm some huge bitch. i'm not sure why me leaving for so long is a big deal to her.

So i've been thinking alot about college lately, and I really really want to go, but i am TERRIFIED. I'd love to go to SCCC with all my wonderful friends, but then again, Flo-Valley is going to be closer to where I will be living by the school year.
but i don't know if i am really ready.

and i made myself a promise, that:
i'm going to live my life, at my pace, on my terms, how i want to.
and i think i've done a great job at that so far.
and i think the ONLY person to really understand that is Behkha,
and thats why we ended up in Pennsylvania.

Also, i LOVE hanson, i don't care what you think.
don't judge me.

But it don't even matter now cause the time has come
welcome to the world it'll let you down
The time has come for you
to live it up let it go
Show them what you're made of
And we'll take our chances getting it wrong
And we'll take our chances