lonely and sick and tired.

i'm exhausted from being up SO much.
i'm lonely because i feel like i'm not good enough for my own best friends.
and i think i'm so emotional i've made myself physically sick.
it could be the lack of sleep...
it could be the stress...
it could be the pork chops my mom made me for dinner.
but i just dont know what to do, or how to feel anymore.
i seriously thought i was going to die last night.
it was terrible and really disgusting.