alright alright alright

there comes a time in one's life when it's time to move out... or when you're mom decides to sell the house and gets back together/move in with her estranged husband that you havent liked in the past 5 years, but he's been in your life for the past 18... either way i'm left with some limited options:

1. i could move in with my mom and the above mentioned, and end up in either florissant, missouri or dallas, texas.

2. i can stay in st peters/st charles area and move to an apartment complex, keep my job at verizon and look for either another full time, or 2 more part time jobs.

3. i can take a government job where they will pay to relocate me in either washington, dc or oceanside, california or baltimore, maryland or rochester, new york.

4. i can sell my social life and become a full-time live-in nanny to a family that travels more than me but lives in Philadelphia. This is a great oppurtunity to see some places with no strings attached including Europe.



at this point, i'm thinking i'm going to pick one of the last two. but i'm not sure if it's out of spite, anger, and my bad-habit of pushing people away or for the fact it'd be the wise, adventure and the stability.

i know if i take this government job i will be on a salary, i will have enough money. but i wont get a lot of time off and it'll be hard work.

and i know if i become a full time live in nanny i'll see great places, i'll travel, i'll take care of some great kids, and i'll see places i always want and know i have somewhere to go home... but i wont get to see anyone ever. i'll be too busy.

but the 2nd option is where my heart is. i know i'll have to work my ass off, i know i'll be on my own for everything, and i know i HATE missouri, and i HATE st louis, and i HATE st charles... but i've grown up here, and i'm not sure if i'm ready to leave ALL my family and friends.

i want anything but option 1. my mom may need that man in her life for stability, but he is anything but in mine... and he is anything but welcome.






also, i just read last nights blog and i was pissed.
it just bothers me when people jump to conclusions.